“I can be a jerk when I don’t get enough sleep.”
That is how I recently answered the question about what I am learning through fostering. At the same time, I am also learning how to lean on God in new ways and understand His grace and peace. Charles Spurgeon said, “I have learned to kiss the wave that throws me against the Rock of Ages.” I think fostering is that wave for me, and while there are definitely days when I want to give up altogether, many times I find myself thanking God for the opportunity to love these little ones, to have my heart break (again) and to throw myself into my Father’s arms.
I also really loved the question: “What are you learning through this experience?” I have not been asked this often and would like to also be asking others this question. Most often when people find out we are fostering we get a lot of discouraging responses, and while I believe that most people do not intend to be hurtful, I’d like to share a few ideas.
“I could never do that.”
That’s totally fine, but please don’t say it. I probably couldn’t do what you do every day either. And God isn’t asking me to. I’m not better than anybody else because I am currently choosing to spend my time doing this. People often say this regarding us living overseas too. Again, God doesn’t ask all of us to do the same thing and that’s great. There is no hierarchy. Be true to who God created you to be and open to doing what He is asking of you.
As a side note, no, maybe you can’t foster, but that doesn’t mean that you can’t do something to help vulnerable children through prayer, financial support or serving in your community if that is something God is asking of you.
“I would get too attached.”
I am confident that prior to fostering, I thought the same thing. And it is absolutely 100% true. I get waaaay too attached. I welcome this little human into my life to completely disrupt it for an unknown amount of time. I love them entirely, get thrown up on, discipline them, never get a good night of sleep, worry, play, take them to the doctor, second guess my decisions constantly and am always asking for advice from others, such as friends, parents, nurses, doctors, social workers, psychologists, etc.
But here’s the thing, when you say that to someone who is fostering you are communicating that somehow we aren’t “too attached”. That somehow saying goodbye isn’t complete hell while we celebrate their adoption or reunion with biological family, that we didn’t fully love them and won’t feel their loss and impact for the rest of our lives, that God somehow made our hearts a little harder than yours so we could endure the pain. It’s simply not true. Our hearts break and we cry and then we do it all over again because God has asked us to. These little people need us to be “too attached” so they can experience the love of Christ.
“You signed up for this.”
This simply isn’t helpful. Yes, we know that when we agreed to foster we were never going to keep the child. I also knew that when I got married it was going to be hard and someday my spouse will die. Or my parents. Or any other person I love. And yet, we still each fully enter in and embrace the beautiful relationships that God has given us in this life.
We all signed up for loss and suffering, so let’s try to love one another well in the journey. Let’s ask “what are you learning through this experience?” or other questions that encourage and support. And when it’s hard, let’s offer a hug and a tissue and just be there. How can we best love the people God has placed in our lives?